Faith
November 15th, 2009 by Bill ColleyDriving to church today I stopped to buy some newspapers. I also had an old lottery ticket I found last week while cleaning my Jeep (I should note last Sunday I gave the Jeep the most thorough washing since I bought it last year and then we got clobbered by days of heavy rain). While standing in line with my papers my neighbor walked up behind me and struck up a conversation. As I handed the ticket to the clerk he laughed and said, “Just think, you’ll only have to work behind the microphone when you feel like it”. The clerk said something as I stood laughing with him. She was clutching the scanned ticket and I told her she could just toss it in the trash. Then she informed me I hadn’t heard her clearly…
I’ve been playing lotteries periodically for nearly 30 years. I’m not an inveterate gambler but spend the occasional dollar on a ticket. For almost thirty years this has been the story and today I won the largest payout I’ve ever had playing the game. Fifty dollars and on my way to church, where a fellow walks up the aisle and passes a basket not once but usually twice and smiles in an effort to bring forth monetary gifts. This created somewhat of a dilemma for me.
There are churches so disapproving of gambling the money would be refused. Then there are pastors I know who would gladly absolve the money of the sin by telling me turning it over would cleanse my soul. These weren’t the issues for me this Sunday. Last month I publicly vowed I wouldn’t be passing through the doors of a Roman Church for quite some time and I vowed the Church wouldn’t be getting my money. I made these statements on a radio show, which appears to be the most listened to program in its time slot in these parts, after reading the Diocese of Wilmington sought bankruptcy protection in order to better manage the lawsuits it sowed by ignoring internal scandal. In the confessional I’m told to come clean but administrators hold themselves to a different standard.
My pique lasted but for a few days. Then I realized I missed the people I see at mass and I like the local priests. I’ve reached a point in life where I don’t believe my church may be a better church than the one my Methodist neighbor attends and I know some really good Baptists and Wesleyans and would feel comfortable in pews in those churches because of the depth of feeling people have for their faith. Yet I still can’t tear myself from Roman Catholicism, which is and has been for many years the bedrock of my life. It’s the physiological response following communion. The Eucharist remains as unique as to prevent me from cleaving from the faith. It may look the same in Lutheran and Episcopal rites but I don’t believe I would find shared conviction. It’s because I would be looking around those churches and be thinking to myself, “Liberals”. Which isn’t really very nice in church or at least the way I would be thinking about them.
A few years ago I read the comments of a Prince of the Church made during a gathering of the U.S. Conference of Roman Catholic Bishops. The man was an Archbishop and a household name and he told some reporters Roman Catholicism in the United States was much more a Calvinist institution when compared to worldwide counterparts. What surprised me following was no one was in denial about the remark. There were knowing laughs and some folks nodded heads in the affirmative. Certainly Calvin would disagree but in the United States there is a shared cultural conservatism between the two strains.
It’s bigger and longer lasting than any current scandal and it’s the seed for future hope among many old believers. An observation about today’s mass. Our communion hymn was How Great Thou Art, which rarely have I heard in a Roman Church and yet there were people all around me belting out the lyrics to a song with roots deep in Eastern Europe and made popular by modern descendants of the Protestant Reformation. By the time I accepted the host a second hymn was flowing and I can safely say Amazing Grace is universally accepted across the Christian divides.
Today the man with the wicker basket was the same fellow who helped me find a seat when I arrived. When he came around seeking offerings I dug deeply into my wallet with no hesitation and left a substantial deposit.